Monday, January 21, 2013

School downs

*sigh*

It's just one of those nights when I feel like giving up. Goodness, why is college so difficult?? College is definitely not about what you know, but rather about what you can "prove" you know. :T College is hard, but I refuse to give up. I refuse. I refuse. I refuse! On my bulletin board right above my desk, I have this posted:


When you feel like you're drowning in life, 
don't worry, 
your Lifeguard walks on water. 

I just have to turn my frown upside down and keep treading forward. 

I love school.
I love school.
I love school.
I love school. 
School is fun.
School is fun.
School is fun.

[The more I repeat, the more it becomes true, right? lol.]


Pray for me folks! 

With love,
derika<3

Sunday, January 20, 2013

19!

One more blog for the night! This pic was taken on my 19th birthday. I love this picture, and quite frankly, I could care less if you don't. So if you're looking at this.....

It

is

Awesome

Period


-End of story-


Surprise!

Hi there!

This is a late post, sorry I haven't been keeping you up to date! Something important happened to me.... On the 15th of December 2012, I got over my feelings for Tai. :) I want to get into details, but it's almost 1am, and it's been more than a month since it's happened. Just know that God was quick to answer my prayer and removed my "distraction" when I asked him to. Tai is nevertheless a great person, and I still find him attractive. I guess the only thing that's changed is that I don't mind not being able to have something more than friendship with him.  I actually feel really relieved, believe it or not. I don't feel guilty when I see him, or feel sadness in my heart for not being able to express my feelings towards him. I'm happy to be able to talk to him without hesitation, without caution, without fear of having my feelings known. God has a plan for me---I always try to remember that. I may want certain things to happen for me, but does God want those same things for me? I trust with all my heart that He knows best, so I've decided to be patient - to wait. A very good friend of mine once told me that God is preparing someone for me and He is preparing me for someone. When we both are ready, He will bring us together. ~~~Such a wonderful thing to say, right??!! I love her. <3 
Anyway, raise your glass to me because I have and am saying goodbye to Tai! 

Goodbye, Tai! Goodbye, girl who hurt because of Tai! You both are free! May you both fly and be happy. May you both find your place in the arms of those God has planned for you.

In the meantime, I'm going to fantasize about my Mr. Darcy.....or Damon Salvatore. It's not wrong to dream, right? :P 



Goodbye, friend. Until next time.

With love,
derika<3


P.S. Enjoy this pic of my chub cheeks and messy hair. Those cheeks will be hopefully less pronounced by April! Hahaha