Mebbay

This is my friend "Mebbay" whom I feel really thankful for. I've known this girl for less than a year, but it's crazy how comfortable I already am with her. She's one of the few people I've met in college who has seen behind my guarded walls. I know it sounds dramatic, but it's the truth. I don't let people in easily, especially since it's so easy to walk out. My life isn't perfect, but don't get me wrong, I'm not ashamed. I simply choose to not share my life story with every single person I meet. ~~Mebbay gets me though and she doesn't care about my past. She accepts me for who I am today and looks forward for my future. I know I have her support and I know I can always count on her to listen to me -- even when I'm whining or being plain ridiculous. I don't throw "I love yous" often because I want them to really mean something. With this girl, however, I can honestly say those words with conviction. She has my back and I have hers. I'm really looking forward to the memories we'll make as our college years and the rest of our lives pass us by. Mebbay's a keeper, and though we don't talk or see each other everyday, it's so nice to know that our friendship remains alive within our hearts. 

Love you girlie! <3


-derika



P.S. We take LOTS of pics when we hang out. And we sing loudly to songs on Youtube like we're Beyonce! :) 

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POTD

-sunny winter day in Seattle
-wavy hair when I woke up
-not having to wake up to an alarm clock
-waking up to a good dream (TAI ;P )
-simplicity, peacefulness, and happiness

Cleansed

Today was such a long day, but it was a happy day. I feel renewed, alive, grateful. Church this evening was a great way to end my crazy and stressful week. I want to dance dance dance dance! ...and if you know me, I can't do that very well, so I guess I mean do random, stiff movements with a big smile on my face. hehe. :) 

Here's a pic of me and two friends from earlier this evening. My friend doesn't like this pic of her because she thinks her cheeks look super big and because she looks super chinky, but I think she's cute. haha. My other friend lost a bunch of weight, so he's swimming in his suit. He needs to update his wardrobe! I don't know what to say about myself... I look chinky I guess, and my coat makes me look bigger? Haha. I like that outfit nonetheless. 

Kayy, until the next post!



Love,
derika<3

My baby brother was once a baby.

Watching and hearing my 15-year old brother's expressions as he browses my Pets board on Pinterest........ such an amusing thing to see as an older sister. :) 
*sigh*
I love these intimate moments with family! <3
I wanted to post this as my status on Facebook, but I didn't want to embarrass him. Haha.


Cheers to this post that'll remind me of the #little things when I forget. 

TAI

"...And you can't lose what you never had
I don't understand why I feel sad..."



"Can't Let Go"

School downs

*sigh*

It's just one of those nights when I feel like giving up. Goodness, why is college so difficult?? College is definitely not about what you know, but rather about what you can "prove" you know. :T College is hard, but I refuse to give up. I refuse. I refuse. I refuse! On my bulletin board right above my desk, I have this posted:

When you feel like you're drowning in life, 

don't worry, 

your Lifeguard walks on water. 

I just have to turn my frown upside down and keep treading forward. 

I love school.

I love school.

I love school.

I love school. 

School is fun.

School is fun.

School is fun.

[The more I repeat, the more it becomes true, right? lol.]

Pray for me folks! 

With love,

derika<3

19!

One more blog for the night! This pic was taken on my 19th birthday. I love this picture, and quite frankly, I could care less if you don't. So if you're looking at this.....

It

is

Awesome

Period

-End of story-

Surprise!

Hi there!

This is a late post, sorry I haven't been keeping you up to date! Something important happened to me.... On the 15th of December 2012, I got over my feelings for Tai. :) I want to get into details, but it's almost 1am, and it's been more than a month since it's happened. Just know that God was quick to answer my prayer and removed my "distraction" when I asked him to. Tai is nevertheless a great person, and I still find him attractive. I guess the only thing that's changed is that I don't mind not being able to have something more than friendship with him.  I actually feel really relieved, believe it or not. I don't feel guilty when I see him, or feel sadness in my heart for not being able to express my feelings towards him. I'm happy to be able to talk to him without hesitation, without caution, without fear of having my feelings known. God has a plan for me---I always try to remember that. I may want certain things to happen for me, but does God want those same things for me? I trust with all my heart that He knows best, so I've decided to be patient - to wait. A very good friend of mine once told me that God is preparing someone for me and He is preparing me for someone. When we both are ready, He will bring us together. ~~~Such a wonderful thing to say, right??!! I love her. <3 

Anyway, raise your glass to me because I have and am saying goodbye to Tai! 

Goodbye, Tai! Goodbye, girl who hurt because of Tai! You both are free! May you both fly and be happy. May you both find your place in the arms of those God has planned for you.

In the meantime, I'm going to fantasize about my Mr. Darcy.....or Damon Salvatore. It's not wrong to dream, right? :P 



Goodbye, friend. Until next time.

With love,
derika<3


P.S. Enjoy this pic of my chub cheeks and messy hair. Those cheeks will be hopefully less pronounced by April! Hahaha